The · Misadventures · of · Miss · Mara · Moo

I have had the greatest time. My friends are amazing, the sun is great, I'm finally mending my relationship with the beach, I spent all my birthday money, my dancing shoes are well worn out, and I have just had so much fun.

So, my ex is getting married to my old house mate. We stopped dating, amicably (although I was quietly heartbroken). He then asked me if it was okay if they went out. She wasn't interested at the time, although I found out when I moved to Adelaide that they were dating. And now they're engaged.

I shouldn't be upset, but I am affected for some strange reason.

Come along and suppoorrrrrttt the girl bass player :D

I got a job!! I went into town yesterday, to have lunch at Vego's with Pretzel and Lewis, and I printed off 10 copies of my resume just afterwards. I looked out for stores with "staff wanted" signs, and handed my resume in at some mens-wear shop, and in a shoe store. The latter gave me a phone call about ten minutes after I was in there, asking me to come back for a chat. I did just that, and they offered me a job! The second store I went into! How's that for luck? So...I start in 9 days time (they gave me a little time whilst my mum's here), and I'm doing Monday, Thursday Friday in my first week. They're more my style of shoes, although I'm still not totally siked on being surrounded by leather. They sell creepers and Chuck Taylors though, so it's a bit more me than all heels and points.I can't decide what the best thing about it is - the absence of a uniform, the fact that I got a job with 'the competition' (opposite Betts, my old work, in the mall), or the fact that I'll be getting an income again! They want me to do about 20-25 hours a week, I think. Hooray!! Money!!!

In other news, I made my first appearance at Study on Tuesday night. I had a blast! It was so good just seeing my friends in that positive light, and really feeling like I'm getting to know them. The food was great, the discussion was intense, and the night went waaayy longer than I thought it would, so I had to tend to a very upset little man when I got home just before 11. I hope that it doesn't create a rift between us that I want to do this and he doesn't want a part in it at all. Encouragingly though, I got a beautiful message from April last night:

Hi! I was just thinking about you and your situation. This kinda popped into my head, my mum was brought up catholic but never had alot of faith until I became Christian and she saw what it did to me. After that she learnt alot and rediscovered her faith. But my dad has never been keen on religion and is stubborn so mum just kept her faith to herself, which I'm sure she finds hard. Last week dad put a note up on the fridge he'd found that said something about 'adoption being from the hand of god' which is so weird for my dad. He surprised us, time definitely can change people. Just thinking!

That made me feel heaps better about the situation, firstly because I know that people are out there caring and thinking about me, and what I'm struggling with, and also because of the fact that other people are going through the same problems as me all around the world! It's not exactly the same as what's happening with me and Matt, but it's a help anyway. I know things are going to be okay. Plus, we're going to be together forever, so why wouldn't they be!?



Anyway, I've been getting kind of down the last couple of days, just feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything. I really can't wait until we're out of this house for good, it causes me so much stress. We'll finally have a place that is just ours, and we will hopefully have heaps more room to keep our stuff, rather than cramming it all in wherever we can! Having Claire and Dave, and Jess and Adam here, was really good, but it was also pretty full on. And then my mum gets here in four days, and I have that to look forward to, but for some reason I'm really nervous. Might have something to do with her not knowing about my tattoo, might be just that I haven't seen her for over 6 months. I am excited, don't get me wrong, I just hope it goes okay. So apart from all the things that have been stressing me out, I've actually been really at peace in my heart. Just knowing that I have these amazing friends here, who I've only known for a short time, but who I really feel care about me deeply, has kept me feeling really positive and grounded. I am really lucky. I have so much love showered upon me, from my friends, from my family, and most of all from my beautiful baby boy, and it's not surprising that I feel I'm gonna melt sometimes!

Okay thats enough gush and goo.
Might go to Tim and Sharleen's tonight to watch movies or play board games. Will be good times!
Less than 4 days til my mummmyyy's here!!!!! YAY!!

x Mara

I had a really fun weekend with Claire and Dave. Met up with them at the wedding on Friday night, and then hung out all day Saturday and Sunday too. They are two of the best friends I could ever have, and I am really really lucky. Sucks we live so far from eachother :(

( Wedding Shots ) and ( Zoo Pics ) and ( Dinner at Sprouts )

I'm going on the prowl for a job today. I'm all dressed up in my nice jacket and my nice shoes, and I sprayed the hairspray Claire gave me over my nice hairdo (Man, it smells sooooo good!). So, wish me luck! Hopefully I get me a term of employment!

x Mara

I bought this 7" for 50c!!!!!!

I am the luckiest girl alive!!!

(except for the fact that I'm about to go and sit an exam, and I only found the online revision notes twenty minutes ago. Bummer!)

I just got home from the last of my uni days as a Science student (fingers crossed)!!!! I am soooo close to finishing my first semester of university, and I'm soooooooo proud of myself :D I just have to write an essay, and pass two exams, and I'm DONE! WOOHOO!!!

To celebrate, I made brownies. I hope they taste good when I take them out of the oven.

x Mara

Seriously, why is it so cold here?! I used to think winter was bad in Perth, but here it is close to unbearable, and I still have the rest of June, July and August to get through until it starts warming up again! However will I cope?! In other news, I have become addicted to Dolly Parton. As I am low on funds I am being a scumbag and downloading some of her tracks on slsk. So far I only have Little Sparrow and Jolene, but I'm getting a whole album...albeit slowly.
I haven't done nearly enough work as I should have. I've only just started reading my education book which I should've been reading chapters from weekly since the start of the year. Whoops. Hopefully next semester, when I need the grades, I will be able to stick to my guidelines a little better. I can't wait to have a desk and study set up permanently. I want my new house now dammit!! Might do a quick check now online to see if there are any places for sale around here which my mum would be able to afford. I hope she buys someplace where we can rent off her. She's such a lifesaver.
Oh, and I have to check electricity (and water) usage for top-loading washing machines and heaters, so I can prove to Stars that it costs a LOT to do two loads of washing per day, and then use a fan heater to dry them each night. Cos you know, it's really that hard to figure out by yourself...!

x mara

The weekend went well, I guess. We set the alarm for quarter to six on Friday morning, and I gave Matt his Star Wars pinball and his poker set. He's so hard to buy for, and I'm so broke, that they weren't the most successful of gifts, but I know he was happy anyway. I got up and sat with him while he ate breakfast, and gave him big hugs before he headed off to work, and I went back to bed. Uni was plain and boring, as most Friday's are, and I just couldn't wait to get home again! Matt had a full day at work, unusual for a Friday, so he got home around 3, and I'd been home for a few hours already.

We spent an hour or so rearranging the loungeroom and putting in a new couch (which belongs to our new housemate Lewis - more about him later!), then I stupidly missed my doctor's appointment that I had booked for Friday afternoon, which kinda put me in a bad mood. I also spent about an hour and a half trying to pick what I was going to wear out. I seriously hate winter, when I'm trying to look nice! In my opinion, you can't wear jeans and look classy, but skirts and stockings are generally only dark, and therefore depressing, as I hate wearing all black. All my pretty tops are summer tops, because for some reason they don't make nice winter blouses or tops, and so these clash with the dark stockings/skirts and make me even more upset!!! Matt was gorgeous, he spent roughly half that time watching me struggle, and just no understanding! I told him that all I wanted was to look pretty for him, so after awhile he just took my face in his hands and said "you know you're always pretty to me, but mostly when you do this" and pulled my mouth into a smile. N'aww.

I finally decided on keeping warm up top, and wearing a skirt and closed in shoes on bottom, realising that we'd be spending most of the night indoors anyway. Just before 7pm we headed out to dinner with Matt's dad and some friends (most of whom were VERY late) at Sprouts. I had a terribly yummy soup (Butternut and Macadamia mmmmm) and we shared some fries. That restaurant is so incredible, wish it didn't cost so much though!! I'll have to make a booking for Claire and Dave when they're down in a few weeks time. We were going to head to a cocktail bar on Rundle Street (Formo Blue?) but instead just decided to go straight to the Casino, after dropping some of Matt's pressies in the car.

Casino was alright, much the same as the Burswood back in Perth. I always find those places depressing, especially when there's no dresscode and you see old ladies in trackies gambling away their pensions on the pokies. I still can't believe poker machines are legalised in all sorts of establishments here, can people not see the damage they're capable of? Footy won $300 on the poker table, totally out of the blue and in about 2 minutes, I think. I only played one game, 50 Lions (like the band!), cos I found a dollar coin on the floor haha...I made it up to about $2.15, then I lost it all just as quickly. We ended up getting home around 12.30 and pretty much went straight to bed.

On Saturday I picked up my results from the doctor (100% healthy!), and spoke to my mum for awhile on the phone, then Matt and I went window shopping for couches. I discovered a brand new shop (Saturday was opening day!) in Croydon called Polka Dot, I think, which has amazing vintage repro dresses and other items. Most were over $200 but seriously, they were gorgeous. I'd love one day to be able to make and sell my own fashions like that. We didn't end up finding any couches, so we headed home, packed for the overnight stay (I used my new overnight case from the op shop!), and caught a bus into Town.

The hotel was incredible, we stayed in an Executive Suite on the 15th floor, and from our balcony we could see the whole of Adelaide and the hills beyond! We had a two person spa bath which we used once at night and once in the morning, a super comfortable queen size bed, complete kitchen facilities, and a comfy sofa in front of a HUGE TV with cable channels. We only headed out twice in the evening, first to get a snack from the convenience store (where I discovered that Redskins are now made without gelatine...yippee!!!!), and secondly to get some Nurofen as we both had headaches. We were a bit bummed cos we didn't bring our bathers, and Stars was going to bring them into the city for us, but she got there heaps late and so it wasn't really worth it. We sat on the couch and ate our dinner whilst watching Galaxy Quest (haha, what a sterling movie), then had a romantic bath (we are totally getting a spa at some stage in our lives!) and flopped into bed. In the morning me and Matty got a bit frisky (tehehe!), and then I made pancakes and we headed for home.

Yesterday we went back into the city for lunch with Matt's mum, Robin. For some reason every time I see her I come away feeling incredibly worn out. She is so tiring, so dependant, and so worrisome, but I really am not surprised when I hear from her how she's living her life. She just got "let go" at work, so is now unemployed, which gives her even more reason to be depressed. It amazes me that, although she's in her mid-50s, she has no sort of stability, and although she owns a house and car, she can't even make ends meet to pay her weekly bills, and has to borrow money off her ex-husband. I hope I never end up like her, to say the least. After we said goodbye to Robin, Matt and I went shopping for a new jacket for him. Bumped into Cheyne and told him how I'm quitting this week, and he was most upset. I'll probably miss him the most out of everybody there, my sweet angel Cheyne...We didn't find a jacket for Matt, but I saw the most awesome Dickies Girl jacket which I would definitely be saving up for, if I actually had any sort of income at all. Sucks...

That's about all for the weekend, we just came home and made tempure veggies last night (delish!) and then crashed into bed really early (7.30 hahaha!). If it wasn't clear from the last passage, I'm quitting my job. I've had enough of the garbage that I constantly get from our maniacal manager, and considering I'm only a one-day-a-week casual, it shouldnt' be my responsibility to carry out her whims and desires (like getting me to call the state manager to let him know why I wasn't coming into work,when I'd requested the weekend off 5 weeks prior, from her). She is a nut, and I'm glad she won't be in my life anymore. Money, however, will be very tight for awhile, so I won't be doing any spending, or interstate holidaying for quite some time. I'm coming up to uni holidays, so I should have a heap of time to apply for jobs etc, it all depends on availability, and whether I'm better than the next Joe.
So wish me luck, send me your richest thoughts, and hopefully Youth Allowance from Centrelink will be enough to keep me going for awhile.

God, what a long entry!
Better get to some homework now, as I took the day off from uni to study, and haven't actually done anything. Story of my life.

x mara

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So life is going well! I feel more in love than ever. I think that every day I love Matt even more and more, if that's even possible. We've been going to Bunnings a fair bit, so I could get potting mix and new pots and plants for the garden, and also we've been talking about the new house we'll have, come September. That leads us to planning the house which we'll own together one day, in all seriousness. Yesterday we had another discussion, about what sort of house we want to live in, and eventually, the house we're going to buy. I just realised how lucky I am to be with someone who wants to plan the rest of their lives with me. My mum doesn't even have that, which must pain her so much, as her and Chas are so in love. I mentioned this to Matt, and his only response was "Of course we're going to be together forever, why would we ever break up?"...He doesn't seem to notice any of my faults, and if he does, he loves me in spite of them. It just seems so eternal, already, and so perfect, and I can't believe how completely, utterly devoted I am to him. My little cutie-poo.
Speaking of which, it's Matt's birthday in a few weeks. I've booked us into a hotel in the city, 4 and a 1/2 stars apparently. It's the same one that a bunch of Perth people stayed at for Crafter Fest last year, but our room will have a spa bath! ;) I bought a sexy garter belt today, and I'm gonna pick up a French Maids outfit in the next couple of weeks too. Y'know, room service, in the hotel and all...hehe! I might try and find him some toys somewhere too, I dunno though. I'm surprisingly really lost as to what to get him! I had an awesome hotel to Melbourne planned, then I just wouldn't have had the money to do it, plus he really wants to spend his birthday with all his mates here in A-town. Ah well, I'm sure I'll find something...
I joined the gym at uni last week, I've only been twice so far (Thursday and Friday), but I still feel better for knowing that I'm on the right path to fitness and good health! I have a weights regime worked out, which includes work with a fit-ball (grr! I hate those things!), and takes about 45 mins, and I'm also doing an hour or so on cardio, or so the plan is! I want to get around to doing some classes - pilates, step, cardio blast and pump are the ones I have my eye on, plus maybe even pole-dancing when it starts up next term (Reooowww!) Anyway, on the right path. My first day at the gym I burnt 500 calories whilst I was there, so I know I can do this. I'm hoping that when I start getting fit that I won't eat as much crap, but I dunno...It's not fair cos Matt eats anything he wants, and it's hard not to just have what he's having...I swear he's a bad influence on me!! :( Maybe I can tone up enough in the next few weeks that I'll actually look hot in a maid's outfit, not just like a tub of lard :/
Once again, speaking of which, I went swimming on Saturday night!!! We went to a party in the hills, up at a Baptist camp in Mylor, and there was an indoor heated pool at 32C, which was incredible! We drove up there with Josh and April, and got lost about 3 times, and I almost peed my pants twice. Damn my small bladder. There was a bonfire, and inground trampolines, and playgrounds, and it was heaps of fun!! Reminded me a lot of my time spent at Pembroke in Kenya, being on a boarding property 'after hours', and having it all to ourselves. Except this time, the people weren't all crazy Africans haha...

Matty's tapping me on the back, he's in bed reading and I'm sitting next to him on the computer (gotta love technology!!) - I think he wants me to cuddle him.
Gotta get back to my book - A Lion In The Bedroom, Pat Cavendish O'Neil, it's reaaallll juicy and good!

x Mara

Yeah I'm siked. Ebay rules.

I'm in a better mood today. Computer's back to normal, and whaddyaknow, I'm back to livejournal-ing instead of homework-ing. Can't find the motivation! I've already had a week long extension, due to not being well enough to go straight back to uni, and I still haven't done the work! I have to
* complete two sheets of maths homework, half of which I don't understand
* write out journal AND content questions for the last 3 weeks of term, for my education topic, and type up the stuff from the other weeks to hand in
* download readings for education (stupid 31kbps internet connection!)
* download lecture notes for what I missed last week
Yeahhhh can't be bothered.

Matt's in Sydney at the moment, I had to get up real early (5am!) to drive him to the airport. He gets back tomorrow, but I'm working all day, and then we're going to Hatebreed tomorrow night. Should be good!
Oh, if you see this link anywhere: http://www.yoursexiq.com/questions... DON'T CLICK ON IT!!!!! Most people are mature enough not to anyway, but I'm BORED and procrastinating...so what it does, is takes your answers and SENDS THEM TO THE PERSON WHO YOU GOT THE LINK FROM!!! So now Weber knows how much me and Dougy have sex, how satisfied I am, how many people I've slept with yada yada...+gulp+ Never been more embarassed in my LIFE. So don't do it.

That's all. Internet's getting boring.

x mara

I am typing this on Matt's computer, because, surprisingly enough, my laptop has encountered ANOTHER complication! Actually, the screen won't turn on at all, so it's a little more than a complication. I'M SO ANNOYED!!!!!!!!

I was going to write a really positive, happy post, about how I'm feeling heaps better, I'm eating proper food, I'm going out to lunch with Tom and Greg, Matt's making me happier than ever, my new watch, and how great the show last night was, and now THIS!

Hope nobody was expecting anything nice.
Who am I kidding...nobody reads this thing anyway.

:(

x mara

My throat is really sore. Hospital was an adventure, I guess. The ladies (and men) who looked after me were so kind and gentle, can't stop the damn thing hurting though! Matty got real upset when he had to leave me there yesterday morning. When he came into my room to visit me last night I burst into tears, which didn't make things any easier for him either...he is such a beautiful boy, knowing that he was thinking about me, and missing me, and caring about me made the whole experience so much more bearable.
Right now it's bucketing down outside...so I'm going to go cuddle up to Champ in bed and wait for my Matty Moo to come home and take care of me.

x mara

So now I know what it feels like to be homesick. Last night felt like I was having a breakdown. I don't even know what caused it, just that I missed my house, I missed the hills, I missed my dog, I missed my old bed, I missed my brother, I missed my step dad, but most of all, I missed my mum. It seemed like I was sobbing for a good hour, though I probably fell asleep well before then...I can't believe I am so lucky to just have my Matt, who held me tight and wiped away my tears, and made me feel like an angel, just when I thought I was falling apart.
I can't believe I'm so in love that I'd give up my world for this boy, and be happy with what I've lost, for him just to hold me in his arms.

CLAIRE IS AT MY HOUSE!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!

I'd almost forgotten how much I love this girl. She is such a bright light in my life, and I'm so lucky to have her.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x mara

Chocolate fountains are funner!!!

Well, since I bought my laptop a week ago, I've had it at home for only 2 nights...I just don't think it likes me. First it didn't work with the internet, so we asked them if they'd fix that, and they said "no worries". So whilst we had it still we figured we'd attach the printer, which also just doesn't want to work. We took it back to the shop, and they installed a new modem so the net works ALL the time (not just when it's running off battery, which is what happened before). They also tested the printer, and tested my computer with another, better, printer, and the problem is, my printer just won't work with my computer. Nuh uh, no way. It works with Dougy's iMac, and the computer worked with a HP printer, but together, they don't do nothin!
Anyway, that's my whinge. I get the computer back, but considering I bought it so I could print my uni notes, I don't know what I'm gonna do...At least I can use Matty's computer if all else fails.
Work started to screw me over, in that they were cancelling my 5 or 8 hour shifts in favour of 3 hour ones, or no shifts at all. I'd given them 4 or 5 weeks notice for my 3 days in Melbourne next week, and they had me rostered on the Sunday. So I had to remind them of that, and they then weren't going to give me a single shift, at ALL! I ended up crying, stupidly, but being unable to stop, and somehow getting my way, which equals every Tuesday, and also Sundays from now on. The only thing is, I've got a wedding to go to the Sunday after Melbourne, so I feel REALLY bad, but I'll have to cancel another shift and seem like I don't really want them...anyway, I'm slowly giving up on Betts after being treated like this since I started at Rundle Mall, so I'm looking for another job. I put resumes in at Emporio and Mambo last week, so hopefully something will come up, and I'm still going to look for more places too. Fingers crossed!!
This weekend has been fun...on Friday night after work (and also today for awhile) me and Matt went to Kustom Kulture, which was basically bands and hot 40s/50s/60s cars, and some rockabilly stalls and stuff too. There was swing & rock n' roll dancing, which has made me really stick my boot up Matt's bum for us to start lessons, and the MOST awesome band The Satellites (www.satellites.on.net/) who totally inspired me. Matt rode his low-rider there today, and I drove, but then it rained so he had to ride home again. Heaps of the hot ladies there complimented me on my dress (my new green one), and my shoes (my Sachi wedges) which made me feel purdy. I had a nice time :D

Umm I've been on the computer for ages...Matt's bored.
I'll write more later.
x mara